29 july

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today someone told me that she regreted saying somethings to someone...and im reminded of all the things that i have ever done wrong or said wrong in the past..

i try to live by the no regrets in life but then..somehow i always seems to do somethings wrong..and that has cause me to have regrets..and someday i hope i will be able to amend it..

my first regret was a friend who used to be my best friend turning to bad company..i knew him since i was K2 as our parents know each other and met up almost everyweek..

me, my bro, him, his bro, and another girl plus her sister. all of us always played together in the past..after i moved houses..we kinds lost contact with them...

when i went into my first year in secondary school i met him again..i was very happy but then i realised that things has change from the past till now..he was not the young and innocent boy i knew him to be..i know that he was on the verge of turning to gangsterism..but i did nothing to help him...i did nothing i just stand there and watch him crumble and fall in a pit of sins....even when his mother ask him to help him i still stood by and do nothing and shun him instead as i do not really like gangster who have no morals..but then again most of my friends are gangsters thought they all have morals like they do give up seats for needy and such..not like youngster nowadays...

till today i still feel that i am largely at fault for his predicament today...he used to be a very smart boy yet he got influenced by his friends and did not study anymore after that..i find that its a pity that he went to ITE as i know he has more potential than that..and im not trying to put down ITE by the way..

after i left secondary school i completely forgotten him..and recently i met his mother and from the way she treated me i knew in her heart she blames me for it..i only found out he was in ITE only recently.as i thought he was still studying for O level..

my second regret was confessing to someone who i have like for a very long time..i knew i had to take a step forward if i want our relationship to move on but then now im regretting it as it seems it has make things worst than ever...even now i still feels that she still is not able to get over it and look at me as just a normal friend instead of someone who have love her before..

i wonder when will i be able to love someone else again...i need to move on but then theres someone else thats troubling my heart now...im stuck at another crossroad of life again..