back from a small break from blogging

heyeh

mood of the day: mixed feelings (happy, stressed, lost, tired)

I have decided to change my style of blogging from today onwards. I will be changing to using no short forms and more of a informal tone without having grammatical errors. As well as i will be blogging lesser and lesser, only blogging when there is something interesting.

today i experienced lots of mixed feelings. i was happy when i was joking and having fun with my classmates. Stressed when i was doing project just now. Lost was because i cant seem to know what to do.

everyday after school i will just go where ever people tells me to go. like these few days i have been dragged around by Shi Jie and i was mostly doing nothing other than joke to entertain myself.

I missed my stop today when i was on the bus. it got me to who knows where. lucky for me there was the same bus opposite, so i just took the opposite and alight at a familiar place.

Tired was because of all the things that i was doing. Being a leader is tough, if your an idiot like me. always worrying if the members will get angry or disagrees about the things to do. I will always check with my group members to see if they are fine with it before i actually start to do. and this has dragged my group down a lot as i'm inefficient because of this.

One of my CDS project has not yet started at all and next week is the dead line. if there is no response by end of this week i think i will have to finished up everything by myself though i think i can't because of the sheer amount of work to be done.

I have in fact planned out my holiday. wee~

find a job then every free off days, i will go running in the morning, cycling in the afternoon and learn the piano at night. great plan right? exercise and music only. Its cost-effective as i do not have to spend a single cent and then its relaxing for me haha. If there is an outing with friends, i may consider to cancel 1 day of this. dependings on my feelings on that day.

i realised something early this week. i didn't know that my class people reads my blog. I didn't even know that there was anyone that will be interested in reading other than some of my best friends. surprised me quite a bit since they found out about the person that i like was actually someone from our class and they have been reading to see if i have been writing things on her.

so now officially i wanna say that it's over. it was nice knowing her but somehow it ended because i'm not her cup of tea i guess.

shall go for a break again soon. depends on my mood haha

check back soon.