24 nov

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current mood: happy cause i had an happy time talking to my cousins and confused because of you..


went to airport early in the morning to send my bro off to thailand..super lots of people came sia..his friends and everything..some of them also going with me. they got 18 people who went together..and its like so many haha

so good sia..hope he enjoy his trip overseas. the next holiday after his o level maybe we can go holiday together haha maybe can ask ham they all go together and have fun.

i'm going to have to earn at least 2k to be able to go overseas..and maybe even can sponsor my bro abit

after that went to school early..wanted to sms someone to ask about some things but then in the end didn't cause i just rmbed that u also never go lecture on friday..for POM..

was walking along the concourse of business school then saw mu en at 1 corner using laptop..waah she and chih hao meet together do case study never ask me along sia..zz now then i realised how far behind i am..case study and the fave food still both haven started..maybe tml i will chiong home do...

nico and cheryl was sitting together at another table sia..only got the 2 of them!!! hehe ^.^

after that chih hao came and the 2 of them started doing the case study..then i just sit there lor..then i also helped out abit..cause chih hao ask what weakness and threat means ma..anyway not sure if my description is correct not..haha

after that went to POM tut. after tut i went to biz park with the guys to eat..mu en and syemun sit at another table cause no space.

then we went to lecture. super boring sia..zz shi jie suddenly ask if wanna play pool anot..then i was quite reluctant to go..cause quite tired and no money..in the end still went..cause i see shi jir very sad cause chih hao went home in the end..

only got yen ling, shi jie, minqi, mei yun, justin and me.

minqi and yenling didn't play much pool not sure why lar haiz..pool must play more then will become pro de ma..maybe is i said too much..if i did i wanna apologise..but then it's too late to apologise..haiz..

went to parkway parade with the rest while minqi and yenling went home.

met shi jie 3 other friends there..they all talk till i had the feeling that they was lesbian sia..zz as in they talk about girls and such..

went home after that..took bus 43 with mei yun back home..

reached buangkok mrt station then walked to grandma house to eat dinner

after dinner had a long chat with my 2 cousins. JY and wendy.i think i'm starting to get closer to my cousin le now..somehow they are not the very strict kind of people that i think they was..

my parents are strict..and i had the feeling that my whole family is very strict as well..they proved to be quite friendly and fun-loving as i was haha

i realised that none of my family members had an easy life growing up..even now no one really has an easy life..though we all enjoy having each other as company and that we know we can always rely on each other for support.

my family is a kinda weird and strange family haha

my cousins are like my brothers and sisters.

my brother did not had a easy childhood because of what i did..all because i wanted to take bus home during my pri 5 years..and that cause my brother to had to be alone most of the time..and he even walk home alone everyday..

before that, we was always together playing and going home together..i didn't realised that just be wanting to take bus home could do so much damage to my brother..

i feel that i was the 1 who made my brother turn out how he was today..he turn out to be more mature but then insecure..as in sometimes he is also quite childish as well..

insecure because he thinks my parents do not love him at all..because my parents does not show it..even sometimes i also feels that way..

i really wonder whats going on with me nowadays..just seeing you always wanting to talk to others and always wanting to ignore me..is hurting me so much..to the point that i am not sure what to do now..

it's kinda complicated..but then i hope that someone can enlighten me on what to do..